the chance that I was given

Yeah...... it seems that my desire to write something is alive again:)....I did not want to create my blog because I simply considered that I don't have something valuable to write, but I decided to let this aside and give my soul the chance to speak in written words....
The things that you lose are the things that you loved most, and in many cases the sad part is that only after you lose it you realized how much you loved them and how many things you could have done better. It is really sad because we hardly force ourselves to live in tolerance, to laugh when we need, to cry when we have to, to do madness things, we control ourselves from various silly reasons without realizing that could be our last chance. Why having a hard fight with our boyfiend/girlfiend instead of discussing in peace, maybe tomorrow we regret that we lost the chance to say "I love you", why not having a crazy night with our friends then just go home because next day we have things to do, maybe we won't have this chance again.....why not living the moment and at the end of the day to say "today I was happy"......we just have one chance to live and is just our option how we live it........my mother told me once that no matter what day you had don't go to sleep without saying "I love you" to the person next to you, without saying "Thank you" to the person that help you or " You did a great job" to the person that deserve that.....she was so true......
You now I hardly express my feelings and I needed a bad thing to happen in order to realize how stupid I was....you know why because..... I never told Rada that I like staying in the kitchen with her drinking our coffee and talking girl stuff, I never told Stefan that I admire him the most and I want him to be my mentor, I never told Miha she is really my best friend, I never told Lucki that I wish I had a sister and now I found on, I did not prove Gabi enough that his the person that I really love the most and I really trust him....what am I waiting?...these people have to be told these things in order to have my heart satisfied....but I did not do it?!
Thank you God that you did not take me the chance to tell Rada what I fell....thank you God that you showed me once again that we should live our life in the best way and at the end of the day we can say "I'm happy"